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Mostly you will find, here, transcribed entries from the secret diary that I used to keep as a teenager between 1970 and 1975. I try to be honest with my transcriptions, but, just occasionally I do edit, to protect myself or others from embarrassment or some other emotion.
Also, though, I like to do a brief review of the books I have been reading, so these are interspersed throughout. I reserve the right to write blog entries, also, about other random things.
Why do I keep this blog? I don't know. I am an academic and one of my research interests is around how people construct their own identities. The diary transcriptions, and what I write about my books, are very much about revealing something of my identity.

Saturday, 21 April 2012

My secret diary 1973 April (iii) - doing no revision and a new knick-knack shop

April 23rd (Mon)
Thank god today's gone without any disasters or anything. I was frightened. Been clearing kitchen and revising all day. I get so annoyed when people say me and Norma never do any work. What do they think we do at school then?

April 24th
Oh! School tomorrow. Don't feel like saying much. I'm tired. Auntie Emma's gone home. (She was staying). Listening to oldies on the radio. Started to make halter neck top. Very daring and quite disgusting really. I don't wear bra with it.

April 25th (Wed)
I don't think I fit into my family. Nobody's on the same wavelength as me.  They don't laugh when I laugh, cry when I cry. They're different. I don't fit in with anyone. If I never find anyone I'll have to be a loner.

April 26th
I felt quite happy for quite a long time today but now I feel sad again. Not for myself for a change but for Norma and mum. They keep arguing. Russian orals on 10th May.

April 27th (Fri)
Feel v v tired. Done hardly any revision today. Made new pencil case. Swimming pool's finished*. Mum is depressed but I feel a lot happier. Tomorrow I really settle down to revise. Got James Taylor poster off Sara.

April 28th
Done hardly any revision. Lady's looking beautiful today. She's on a diet. She's been chewing on a bone all day. Exciting discovery!! A shop has opened up near us as a sort of knick-knack shop, with beads and things*. Tired now. Good night. Happy days.

April 29th (Sun)
Took norma back to Brum. Last time we will be doing, I should think*. Oh gorgeous weather. Makes me feel so restless. I want to live in a room of my own with friends like Dinnsy and people*. I wish I was pretty like Norma. I hope she passes her exams.

April 30th
Horrid day! Bloody physics test! A section of last year's 'O' level. I felt so tired when I came home. Done no revision, just homework. I suddenly can't do my maths homework. I'm frightened. A pipe burst in the kitchen connected to the washing machine, and water squirted all over the ceiling like rain. So funny.*

*Commentary
April 27 - for years my school had interminable fund-raising events to build a swimming pool. I recall that we each had a card with a drawing of a brick wall on it, and we had to sell the bricks to friends and relatives. I can't recall swimming much in it, because by the time I got to 6th form I avoided anything sporty like the plague.
April 28th - it was a heavenly shop to my eyes. I can remember it now, with joss sticks and hippy beads and bangles.
April 29 - my big sister was just finishing her last year at university studying Nuclear Physics.(!!) Dinnsy and people were Norma's university friends
April 30 - bet mum didn't think so.

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