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Mostly you will find, here, transcribed entries from the secret diary that I used to keep as a teenager between 1970 and 1975. I try to be honest with my transcriptions, but, just occasionally I do edit, to protect myself or others from embarrassment or some other emotion.
Also, though, I like to do a brief review of the books I have been reading, so these are interspersed throughout. I reserve the right to write blog entries, also, about other random things.
Why do I keep this blog? I don't know. I am an academic and one of my research interests is around how people construct their own identities. The diary transcriptions, and what I write about my books, are very much about revealing something of my identity.

Saturday 15 May 2010

My secret diary 1971 May (ii)

May 16 Sun
OK day. Did homework. Read a lot of 'Fellowship of the Ring'. Wrote letter to Janet Day (she left Hulme). Might phone woman tomorrow about selling flags for the NSPCC.
May 17
OK day. Phoned woman about NSPCC flags. But you've got to be 16 or over. Ask people tomorrow in 6th form. Wrote letter to Russian penfriend to be.
May 18 Tue
Finished Tie-dye in art. Miss Powell said it was good! Parents' meeting at school about O levels. Got a fairly good report. All said I was TOO quiet. I hate Miss Turner.
May 19
Tried to answer a bit more in class, no choice really. O level subjects are Chem, Biol, Phys, Russ + Geog (inc Maths and 2 Eng). Hope I pass. I hate French.
May 20
sorry. Bit behind with diary. Can't remember anything really. J having party. My idea. In garage.
May 21 Fri
Evelyn (nice girl) brought tape-recorder for use at J's party. Fantastic. Auntie Emma is here to stay. Oh blimey. I am trying to be nice.
May 22 Sat
At J's party 3 lads came to door about notice "knock 3 times". Nearly died! "Well, are we invited?" Poor things - the shame. Oh well.
May 23 Sun
Loads of homework piled up through week. Met Mr Jack Coles. Some friend of dad's. Teacher or something. Auntie Emma snores! Oh I detest her.
May 24 Mon
Stayed after school to watch 6th form play "Mary Barton" by Mrs Gaskell. Fascinating old diaries etc. S and I in giddy mood. Had fun.
May 25
Art. Mrs Crewe (French teacher) is dead funny. She talks to herself and looks at ceiling all the time. What fun. All giddy. Finished table.
May 26
sore throat all day, broke out into a cold tonight. Break up on Friday for a week for Whitsun. I don't want to grow up.
May 27
Rotten stinking cold. It's horrible. Usual thing, runny nose, cough, blocked head. Oh. J and some of school go to Holland tomorrow.
May 28
Wish I was going to Holland. Me and J went into town this afternoon. Got film in camera. Dad brought sweets and flasks. Awful cold.
May 29
Rotten cold. Nothing happened really. Bit fed up. Cried at night when mum and dad were out. Don't know why. Then laughed. photos, memories.
May 30
Cousin Marion & Gerard & Christine & Susan & Michelle and David came. Phew! David is a foster child. Feel sorry for him. Susan slept the night.
May 31 Mon
Went to visit guess who? Auntie Emma. Typical. Her and mum are planning to go on holiday AND tag me along. Oh help. Don't want to hurt mum.

Commentary
May 18 - although I may have hated Miss Turner, I have had reason to thank her in recent years for giving me a grounding in English literature, and also an instinctive knowledge of English grammar. Thanks Miss Turner (who is now dead. She was a daughter of the Raj)
May 28 - dad worked all his life for a confectionery wholesale company (starting when he was 14, and it was just him and a chap called 'Uncle Tommy' selling sweets from a van). Mum, Norma and I benefitted from sweet samples regularly.

My secret diary 1970 May (ii)

May 16 Sat
Felt rotten this morning. Had good (?) cry in bathroom for no reason at all. I do not believe in God. Beautiful weather.
May 17
Wore pink dress. Nice really. Felt pretty. Started to make cushion. Like Jack Wild. H.R. Pufnstuf. Looked for nursery (plant) Whit Sunday.
May 18
LUXURY! No school. Felt busy. Tidied house, went up town with mum. Saw IP, KH 7 LD. Wish I hadn't. Tidied bedroom. Started jigsaw.
May 19 Tues
Busy day! S came in morning. Carol came in afternoon. Went to Coliseum Theatre with S at night "The Plaza Suite". Pretty good.
May 20
Did some howmework and revision at last! Went to baths with C and A. A is soft and spoilt. MONEY.
May 21
B.E.D. Went to J's house to take money from 10 mile walk to vicar. J is okay.
May 22 - George Best's Birthday
B.E.D. Went to S's with Droolie (nickname) Late again. Good time. Mostly. Listened to records.
May 23 Sat
Helped dad with garden. Saw LS in town. Bought some plants. Fascinating "ice-flowers". Did a bit of revision. Not much.
May 24 Sun
Went with ma and pa into Stocksbridge to see Aunt Emma. She wasn't in! (She didn't even write or send a postcard) Great day.
May 25
Normal day. Mum in a bad mood. Me and Norma made dinner. I washed up. Humph. Just had a drink of lager. Think I'm drunk.
May 26 Tue
Back to school. Pretty normal day. Found out Miss Brierley's leaving. So is JD. I'm behind with diary
May 27
Bit worried 'cos I have either lost or had stolen a shilling. It isn't much really but I suspect someone in my class. Perhaps it's just me.
May 28 Thur
Phone working. Hurrah! Sick of homeowrk! History. Ugh. English. Ugh. Miss Turner nearly lost temper with me. HA. Like Miss Hatch.
May 29
Happy Day. Sunny. After school J and S came. Poor S broke her heel and couldn't get home. Mended it though. (Dougie did) Good day.
May 30 Sat
Went in town with dad. Saw Billy Barrow (used to go to Richmond), didn't see me. Nice looking. Poor Norma. Has A levels on Mon.
May 31
Pretty boring day. In a giddy mood near the end of the day. Upset about tape-recorder. Broken. First day of the world cup. Revision.

Commentary
May 29 - Dougie was a neighbour who, some years later, became diabetic, and as a consequence lost his sight and both his legs. He was a friend of my dad's.
May 30 - Richmond was my junior school

Saturday 1 May 2010

My secret diary 1971 May (i)

May 1 Sat
Quick day. Norm going tomorrow. Went to SG's birthday party. OK. As usual. Nothing new. Had bath. Dad wanted to argue.
May 2 Sun
Feel a bit upset. We drove Norma down to Birm. I wish she wasn't going. Be-Be (the dog) is pregnant. She's a sausage dog. I feel like crying.
May 3
Usual back to school day. Ugh. Moved into Norma's room. Do I like it? Played tennis after school with Carol and J.
May 4
Pretty normal day. Hoping to get Russian penfriend. Spent ages writing poem for English (School mag) about astronauts. Carol thumping me.
May 6 Thurs
New chemistry teacher's okay. Got sheets on 'O' level exams. I'm going to do biochemistry. Take maths, Eng Lang and Lit, Bio, Chem, Physics and Russian. Played tennis.
May 7 Fri
Usual.
May 8 Sat
At J's. Watched FA Cup final on her colour telly. Arsenal won. Good. I like Charlie George. Two fellas were watching too. Dead funny.
May 9 Sun
Spent most of day at J's. Quite good. Wore midi which me and Norma made. Met Des and Maureen - J's cousin and fiancee. Des is nice-looking.
May 10
I am going to do biochemistry. S still hasn't made up her mind and J is to be a linguist. Feel sick and tired. Teachers meeting with parents soon. UGH!!
May 11
Feel horrible. Crying my eyes out. Everything's getting on top of me. So much homework and yet not a lot. OH HELL
May 12
Exams on 16th June. O-level. Tut. I upset mum yesterday by being late home from school. She was crying. Oh God. I am so frightened. What's wrong with dad?
May 13
I wish I could see dad more. I'm sure Mrs Stanton thinks I'm daft. I hate, detest, physics. Oh no, what's happening to me?
May 14
Awful day. No teachers like me. Miss Turner. God I hate her. Miss Hatch doesn't really like me either, but she's v nice. Getting well into 'Lord of the Rings' Part 1.
May 15 Sat
'Lord of the Rings' is very good. 'Fellowship of the Ring' I think Strider or Aragorn is sexy. Went into town with J. Felt grotty. Bought some pumps. Ok day.

My secret diary 1970 May (i)

May 1st Fri
TB still a red spot. Don't like Miss Arrowsmith the RI teacher, too strict. Doing well in maths.
May 2nd
TB no change. Took specs to opticians. Feel helpless without them. Went with J to a daft Mayfair thing.
May 3rd
Slept at J's. Got sponsor cards for walk next week. Saw some great lads. Worried about school and no specs.
May 4 Mon
TB no change. Did okay without specs. Teachers nice. Felt ill in Russian. Had to go to sick room. Headaches! I'm sick. Nice weather.
May 5th
Lovely day. Hot. Got specs back. Dear old mum! People were nice. S and I had a nice talk. So did Carol and I. J away today and yesterday.
May 6
Miss Brierley's nice. Done some of world children comp at school. Lost a tennis ball at school. Full of scratches. 'Spirit in the Sky' No. 1
May 7 Thur
Bit of vague uprising at school about Miss Roker. She's awful. So unfair. Talks about people when they're not there. Gives us too much homework. Miss Hatch is fab.
May 8 Fri VE Day
TB showing a bit! Miss Arrowsmith didn;t come so Miss Roker gave us work to do!!!!!!
May 9 Sat
seemed to be busy doing nothing all day! Went to J's at about 4.15. Went boy-hunting. They all seemed to disappear (wonder why?)
May 10 Sun
Dad may have to go into hospital. Stomach ulcers. Went on 10 mile walk for Christian Aid. Finished. Tired out! Proud of argument with stupid lad.
May 11 Mon
Boring day. S tried to hypnotise me. Saw girls but there were only three of them. Cowards! In a dead sarcastic mood. Sick of wars.
May 12
And yet another boring day! Keep meaning to write to Shirl. Miss Roker makes me rotten-well sick! Keeping nearly everyone in.
May 13
Worried about periods in games, but okay. Very warm weather but a storm later on in day. "Back Home" no. 1. Bad breath. Got to go to dentist.
May 14
Took some books home for revision. Developed a cough and sore throat. Losing voice. Norma finished 'pant-dress'. Got letter from Lorette.
May 15 Fri
Broke up for Whitsun. Went to Manchester with S. Great day. Sunny. Had photos taken. Got awful cold. The Old Shambles. Fab.




Commentary
'For those who aren't old enugh, 'Back Home ' was the England Football squad's song.
I hesitated before writing about periods and bad breathe - but I suppose these are the things of adolescence, and so can't be censored.