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Mostly you will find, here, transcribed entries from the secret diary that I used to keep as a teenager between 1970 and 1975. I try to be honest with my transcriptions, but, just occasionally I do edit, to protect myself or others from embarrassment or some other emotion.
Also, though, I like to do a brief review of the books I have been reading, so these are interspersed throughout. I reserve the right to write blog entries, also, about other random things.
Why do I keep this blog? I don't know. I am an academic and one of my research interests is around how people construct their own identities. The diary transcriptions, and what I write about my books, are very much about revealing something of my identity.

Saturday 26 June 2010

My secret diary 1971 June (ii)

No entries from June 16 to June 30th - perhaps I was living a life, instead of just recording one!

My secret diary 1970 June (ii)

June 16 Tue
Didn't worry about exams until I got home. Didn't start revision till late. UGH. UGH. UGH.
June 17
EXAMS. I prayed this morning. Not to God but to my mind. Geography and Russian. My cold! Awful experience.
June 18 (General election)
EXAMS!!!! English & Science. Quite enjoyed English exam. Let imagination free. Science . . . . well. Aren't I lazy? Auntie May came June 17.
June 19 Fri
Music and R.I. Music UGH. R.I. UGH. Still not worried. Went to fair with S. Saw K with her boyfriend, snogging. Lucky devil! Do not covet!
June 20 Sat
Revised History for exam on Monday. Nearly all day. So boring. Fell asleep over it at night. Forgot to mention Edward Heath P.M.
June 21 Sun
Today I went to Chester Zoo with Mum, Dad, Norma and J. Disgusted by ignorant people who can't read "FEEDING PROHIBITED" signs*
June 22
French and History Exams. Dad on holiday. Exams not so bad. Only one left. Thank Goodness. In a bad mood today. Sick. (not literally)
June 23
Horrible maths exam. Last one thank goodness! Got first result (72% Geography 9th) Quite pleased. Poor Lady and her eye.*
** see below
June 26
Went to S's house. Lovely view of all Grotton and Lydgate. 'Planet Suite'.
June 27 Sat
Went to J's party. She didn't know who was going! Good time.
June 28
Keep getting a pain in my side. Appendicitis!? Went with baby Sandra to baths but they were shut. She was disappointed.
June 29 Mon
English 67% French 71% S upset about her English. Don't know why.
June 30
History 71% Not so bad. Had great time yesterday in music. Everyone acted the fool. It was worth getting punished for. 1 essay on Bach.

*Commentary
June 21 - this is embarrassing - the phrase sanctimonious little know-it-all comes to mind!
** THERE IS A PAGE MISSING FROM MY DIARY! Why is 24th/25th June missing? It looks like I tore it out! When? Why?
June 23 - Lady was our lovely black mongrel dog, in case any readers have forgotten. I can't recall what was wrong with her eye.

Thursday 3 June 2010

my secret diary 1971 June (i)

June 1st Tue
Did absolutely nothing all day. Mum had a miscarriage in-between Norma and me. I didn't know until Norma told me a bit back. Copied some of Tolkien.
June 2nd
What a day! Oh Jackie you're really so lazy. Just moped around all day. Pretended to do some revision but didn't really. Read.
June 3rd Thurs
Read another Agatha Christie. Fab. 'The Mysterious Affair at Styles'. Went to town. Bought pen and crayons. Got whistled at. Poor mum and poor dad. Poor everyone.
June 4th
Day passed fairly quickly. I began to do my revision. Went into town with mum. Got some photos developed. Ugh. From 3 years back.
June 5th Sat
Quiet day again. Helped dad to wash car. Went up town with him. J is back from Holland. I'm a bit upset. She got a boyfriend while there. Jealous.
June 6th
A Nothing day. A bit behind with diary. Norma's coming home next weekend. Good.
June 7th Mon
Back to school. Done hardly any revision. About 9 days to go. I don't like anyone.
June 8th
Still did no revision. Exam fever hasn't struck yet. Ah well. Dad brought fantastic Atls. Beautiful. So big and colourful. Crammed full of info.
June 9th Wed
Da da! Actually revised all me French. First exam you see. Night passed too quickly. Feel tired all the time. Mum's always sad on Wednesday.
June 10th - June 15th
no entries.

My secret diary 1970 June (i)

June 1st Mon
I'm a bit behind with diary, so I've forgotten
June 2nd
Miss Roker was in a bad mood in History. She told S she'd like to slap her! I've been chosen for a 'Parliamentary Politician'
June 3rd
I've been waiting for today all week. Don't know why. 'Christi' Number 1. Ugh. Worried about exams. Nice games lesson. Fab din hour. S and I.
June 4th Thur
Didn't do that thing in history. Thank goodness! Someone's a thief and a sneak in our form. I hate this.
June 5th
Dad went for stomach test. Went to J's after school. S didn't 'cos of little sister. Went home about 10 o'clock. Frightened of gang of lads at bus-stop. J's dad took me home.
June 6th Sat
Went to J's again. Good.
June 7th Sun
Nothing much. Nobody visited. Still haven't started revision. Behind with diary. If only I'd known better I'd have done all revision.
June 8th Mon
S and I both in 'catty' moods. I started revision at last. Dead worried about exams. (On June 17th) Poor Norma still on 'A' levels.
June 9th
S and I had an argument over revision at dinner time. I walked off. J and her laugh! Saw fantastic film on drug addiction. 'Gail is dead'
June 10th Wed
Terrible thunderstorm last night. Awake nearly an our listening to it and watching it.
June 11th
Another thunderstorm only worse. Frightened me. We had a flood. Wrecked garden. I caught cold.
June 12th Fri
S & j & me had long argument about S not being able to go to J's house.
June 14th Sun
Boring day (revision). Behind with diary.
June 15th Mon
terrified about exams on Wednesday. Can't be too bad. Normal day.

Commentary
June 9th - they must have shown us these educational films to warn us off drugs etc. But I think we felt they were about people in another world from us. I don't recall identifying with them.